Blessings, Courageous Ones,
Tricky,
tricky lessons! I have been in the dark
depths of heaviness and beauty, and I begin to make my spiral back into the
light. It has not been easy. At times, when I am so, so honest with my
sweet Self, I admit that it has felt thisclose to unbearably difficult. So many of those layers I thought I had
peeled back, examined, and dealt with in the past have shown themselves yet again,
and have offered up layers and layers…and layers more. Blessed be perseverance!
I am beyond
amazed at what I am, and what we all are, capable of when we have an abiding
commitment to engaging in this deep Shadow work.
What is
flowing forth for me now is a personal, deep, unshakeable Truth—my Truth that I
don’t always need to choose. I don’t always
need to take a “side.” I know what I know, and each of us knows what we
know. This is not static. We are all ever-changing,
ever transforming, for that is life. It
is not necessary for me to explain what is true for me at this moment for it
may not even be true for me when I take my next breath.
I am who I
am, and I honor who I am in this. exact. moment. I honor you in this exact moment, too. Our lessons may not be the same. Our truths may not be the same. Yet I know that we are each a unique, living,
authentic expression of Divinity and I honor that in you as I do in me. It is an act of trust, and an act of
devotion. I release, I let go, I surrender to the flow.
More and
more I realize that my job in this lifetime—the intentional contract I chose
and made before rebirth—is to sit at the Center of the Wheel. What does this mean? My job is to sit within the Center of the
Wheel, in that place of non-judgment, realizing that my Truths are my Truths,
and your Truths are your Truths. This is
not an easy or restful place to be.
Know that
when I speak of Truths, I am speaking of the Big Truths. What I am talking about are all of those
things open, connective, loving, and kind; never divisive, hateful, hurtful, or
discriminatory—for those are not Truths.
Truths are eternal, honorable, and filled with integrity. There is a line somewhere here, and though I
cannot yet fully articulate exactly how to draw it, I certainly know what it
feels like and I know you do, too. These
are the Truths that help us to sleep restfully and awake invigorated.
As a human
being, it can be painful and uncomfortable when I know that others may not be
in agreement with my Truth, may not share in my Truth, may not even honor my
Truth for being My Personal Truth. That
others may wish my Truth to be theirs, and that their Truth to be mine. That this causes pain and separation between
us because we forget that our own personal life-missions are not the same as
those we deeply respect or care about.
It can
often be easier to choose a “side” and to feel supported and part of something
bigger than ourselves by sharing in what seems to be a Truth with others. I am not speaking of our sharing actual Truth,
and the active finding of places of harmonious intersection of our own personal
Truths with those of others, which can be a truly honorable and right place. Often, this is what changes the world!
Yet, I am finding
that it is possible and right for me to sometimes hold a Truth that no one else
believes in, and still maintain honorable and deep relations with others. Loving, sweet, honorable, authentic, TRUTHful
relationships.
The Center
of the Wheel honors all honorable Truths.
All.
The Center
of the Wheel is the place that, in this moment, I am choosing to mindfully sit inside
of—the place of non-judgment; where there is no good or evil, no right or
wrong, no yin or yang, no black or white, no male or female, no this or that,
no either or, no yes or no—there are no “sides” to take here. Polarity is what
divides us, and here I choose not to participate in anything but the spectrum
of All.
I sit in
the Center, the Luminous Void, and see ALL.
All that was, all that is, all that will be. The place of connection, the place where we
all intersect, all love. The place of
shared goals and beliefs and thoughts and actions. The place of unbridled potential. The place where we come together and
intentionally choose what our present , our future, looks like. A mindful place, where there are no
bandwagons to ride upon, no assuming what others think or mean or feel, a place
where I know the only heart and mind I can truly know is my own. Owning my own beautiful and sweet naiveté, I
maintain that this is my place of trust and joy and hope.
Will you
join me here, at the Center?
Blessings,
Lady
Jesamyn Angelica
HP,
Sisterhood of the Moon
